Happy As Larry; Especially when they got Married :)

I wonder when was the last time I drank coffee whilst writing. I’m having this weird but elated feeling, and maybe it’s because for the past few days, great things happened to me, and I hope that I’m not so late with disclosing it. So what happened to me days ago?

It started really unpleasant, plethora of abscesses/furuncles, or whatever you may call it, it’s just that it got pus and it’s swelling, and it really hurts, I got seven of them that grew (I’m not going to tell where, so much for my chagrin) But they’re all gone now, and I’m so grateful that it recuperated days before my man’s sister’s wedding and that’s because my man and his family took care of me (not literally) I mean my man did took care of me and did everything to dwindle my pain, and I’m in their house, and his family understood my situation and I felt their empathy, they’re just so kind and magnanimous.

So the WEDDING DAY! before, I didn’t believe with the others saying that ‘getting married is the most remarkable and mirthful event of one’s life’ because for me it’s just exchanging vows, swearing to each other the eternal love, faith, and fidelity, you’ll be just slipping a ring on each other’s fingers, and you know give each other a smooch, after the priest give the couple a cue, well, the groom probably, but I was a kid that time, and that sort of idea whipped out of my head as I grew, because I’m not really interested in weddings, because I didn’t knew who had it (Except my parents, and other people I knew), and I was really mistaken, it’s more than that. I don’t know how I’m going to tell this, but I was on the verge of crying during the wedding, I’m not being melodramatic, it’s true! I was about to cry but I managed to hold my tears until the ceremony ended. The tears welled up in my eyes when the massive doors of the church opened, and there was the lovely bride standing, ready to walk down the aisle, and ready to have his lifetime partner named Marvin officially (They look really beautiful together) Their wedding proved me wrong, it made me realize that wedding is indeed the greatest thing a person could have in his entire life. And I’d be tremendously happy if I’ll have my dream wedding too in the future.

They both really look perfect!

I didn’t understand why my heart started to thump hard, and my eyes started to become blurry but when I look at them in front of the altar, they seemed to be tremendously happy, everybody’s happy, and I felt really happy………. And that answered why I became teary, I am certainly ecstatic for them. I felt their ardent love for each other, I know that they’ll be happy together and I wish them the very best. I’m so blithesome! And I can’t express it, especially when the groom kissed the bride, I already saw that in movies, but that one was real! I saw it with my very own teary eyes, and I can’t explain how I felt about it, because that was the greatest! The smile plastered in my face was unperturbed, and it didn’t fade, not even the slightest curve was moved. And for the record, that wedding was the first wedding I ever came to, and that was evidently remarkable.

There’s the lovely couple, already out of the church and ready to hit the road to the reception.

So after the wedding, we all went at the reception, the place was immaculate! It’s at ‘The Mango Farm’ we had cocktails first before getting inside the hall, the cocktails were good, but I didn’t give the food that much attention (Sorry Food ) because I was preoccupied, I became petulant with Erv, now, who in the world would be happy when right after the mirthful ‘kiss-the-bride’ thing will be ruined when someone showed you an unpleasant behavior? He’s annoyed, and I understood that part (And it’s for me to know and you to find out ) but can’t he just set that petulance aside for the moment, and act as if nothing’s wrong? He was in a huff, and he started to get on my nerves when he kept leaving me, and spoiling the good mood I was in, but you know I don’t want to spoil my mood either, so I didn’t mind him. After few minutes he settled down, and he’s back! Yeyyy! The bad mood was out of the picture, so I’m happy again The party went on smoothly, the photobooth was fun, the food was delectable, and I won! And I had Hershey’s Almond as a price (And that’s more I like it) I can really say that the party was really a BLAST!!! Marvelous!

After the frolic, the five of us went to Richmonde Hotel, that is where Ate Gichelle and Kuya Marvin stayed the day before the wedding, and we came back there to spend the night, of course the three of us (Erv, Vanessa, and I) stayed in the other room, we had fun in our room (why wouldn’t I be happy? I’m with two giddy goats) those two were hilarious! As always.

The next morning (6am) we had our breakfast downstairs, and again the foods were amazing! But we had to hurry for we had to leave by 8 am; we’ll be going to Nueva Ecija (Kuya Marvin’s home) we packed our things right after we had a stupendous breakfast, and went back to the lobby where Erv’s family was waiting for us.

Guess I’ll have to leave you with all these things, yet! (There are other good things I have to tell next time ) I just want to devour myself and you with this unforgettable moment of my life, and just spill about the great wedding itself And one more thing I wanted to share with all of you is this,

This is Erv’s family, Erv is the good-looking guy at the right side, and that’s me beside him wearing a grey dress. I just want to tell you all how happy I am to be part of this family (Well, not officially ) but I’m just really happy to be part of this.

So there, and my cup has been drained Hope you like it guys!  Because I do, I really do.  Ciao! 

xoxox

Ann

Mistakes are not bound to be with YOU

Your mistakes from the past always have its way of coming back and of hunting you down, it will in every way it could possibly do, just to prick you with the needles of resentment, forlorn, and guilt from the past. It’ll always put an aim on your weak points until you breakdown and declare for cease fire. Well, unfortunately, I am also a victim of the ominous past, and I think everybody is. So how did I cope with it? How did I ditch the uneasy and unpleasant feeling brought by it? Well, there are ways.

Admit

First of all, your past won’t be ominous if you didn’t do anything, so if someone asks you what’s wrong, and you asked for help, tell EVERYTHING! Tell a good friend about it, and don’t be afraid to talk. Don’t think twice of telling everything, no matter how horrible your mistakes were, because that will set you free, and actually, there’s nothing you can do about it but to ADMIT that you did something horrendous, because as long as you keep being surreptitious with what you did, your conscience won’t set you free. Just like putting more stacks of books in your backpack when it’s already full and you can’t carry it anymore. So you’re left with no choice but to accept that you’re not that robust to carry a hefty bag, and just hoist the books out.

 

Learn From It

Yes, you’ve admitted it, so now it’s your cue to learn from it. Take every experiences and your mistakes as lessons, warn yourself about doing it once again. You can never hope for different things to happen if you keep doing the same thing, as well as you neither can hope for a light and free heart if you keep on doing the same mistakes, you won’t grow. But if by accident and something happened, don’t be afraid of it, instead face it, and think of the right thing to ditch it right away. Mistakes are there for us to learn, they’re like the most terror mentors we’ll ever encounter. And that’ll make us rational enough.

 

Look Back but Never Reside

Looking back is not illegal, there’s nothing wrong about it, because sometimes it’s good, because probably your mistakes are the reason of what you are right now. And looking back to it is one good way for you to reflect, and finally say ‘That you’ve learned and you’re not that one stupid person anymore’ look back only. Don’t RESIDE, you can’t tell yourself that you’ve finally moved on when you reside, it’s not healthy! It’ll just make you more depressed, and you won’t surpass the process of moving on and forgetting. So DON’T RESIDE!

Yes, you did all of these things, but the most important thing to do after everything, well, even during such hard times, SMILING is a very effective way to overcome things, because smiling will help you feel good even in the worst of times. Don’t forget to Laugh & Smile, enjoy the remaining good things around you, and be grateful that there’s still good things left, and you’re not bound to be with the worst things. Because God is really good, and he won’t leave your side during circumstances, so SMILE!

2nd Art; The Vibrant

I made another abstract creation out of Fresh Paint application, I don’t know what came to me that I made three creations. Well, maybe because I enjoyed the Fresh Paint Application in my laptop. And so here’s the second one, and I call it The Vibrant, simply because I find the colors are so vibrant, and good in my eyes, it seems like whenever I look at it, I feel exhilarated, and in a moment, I can feel my problems escaping together with the lines that is  outward in direction. So there guys, I am not an artist, and I just started making something like this, so I hope you’ll appreciate my creations   

1st Art from Fresh Paint; Between the Devil and the deep blue Sea

 

So, I made a drawing using the Fresh Paint application, I named this ‘Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea’ I actually like it, there’s something in it that I love and I feel so good about it. It’s actually my first time making something like this, because I’m not really fond of drawing, and also because I’m not really good at drawing. My man said it’s like a drawing of a preschooler, and I don’t know what to say. But if you’ll ask me what’s this drawing is about, the title already said it. It’s about me being in the worst of times, for so many times and for so long time ago, I’ve been in a situation wherein I felt like there’s nowhere to turn to, nowhere to ask for a help, and no one would give a hand to help me get out of the circumstances I’m in. And there’s the sun which means there’s still a chance, that there’s still a way for you to get out of the situation, but it’s not that easy, but all you have to do is to believe, and never give up, because as long as you see hope, just wait. And see that waiting is a worth. 

 

And there, the picture is so simple isn’t it? but you won’t expect that I got this meaning. Well, not if you know the meaning of the expression/phrase, Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea. That easy.

Weary Night

 

Obviously, another abstract creation of mine. Well I made this because I remembered my weary and forlorn nights. Those nights we’re so unspeakable and I don’t know how did I shifted from those nights. Well maybe because horrendous things have their ways to end, maybe they’re tired of making me feel horrible at night, and maybe because they’re already satisfied, because they already saw me feeling awful.

Stay by Rihanna (Cover)

https://soundcloud.com/annschiz/stay

Tried something new, this evening and I don’t want to say. I did this just to fend off my boredom the whole day, you don’t know how many tries I did for this to become good, main reason is, people around me are so noisy and I can’t get a good shot. Well, I am not a professional singer, so guys Pardon me for this With your feedback and verdict about this, will be my cue if i’ll continue singing or not ha! ha! Okay guys, Enjoy! Ciao

 

xoxox

Ann

All About His Heart

Some people ask me how did we two met (Earvin) and I’d say it’s a long, tricky story. The first time we met was at a dance contest, he’s a friend of my cousin, and from there, I actually noticed him, he caught my attention. Mesmerized! I never thought that he’d feel the same way, which I caught him too. But after that night, we didn’t see each other again, no communications, well it’s because he didn’t asked for my number. But after of couple of months, a bleat astounded me, it was him who sent a message (Smile) after that, we exchanged messages every week, talk about random stuffs, and it’s nice because sometimes he’s sweet talking, and I was swayed by it, and every time that he’s texting me I always feel thrilled and ecstatic.

And so it all started with the texting, then calling, then calling me ‘Love’, then the sweet talking, and the courting. He’s the first guy who courted me personally, and not just in text messages, unlike the others, and I really saw his profound and countless efforts, which until now, he’s still doing it. I didn’t fail with choosing this guy; he’s the most faithful guy I’ve ever had. He’s an unconditional lover, he loves who I am and what I am, he accepts the fact that I am a very moody person, and that sometimes I am being mean and bad, it’s not that he’s tolerating my bad attitude, he also makes me realize that I am doing bad and I have to change it for myself, and not because he only wants me to, and yes, I do understand that I have to change my bad attitude to gain. We’re now on our Twenty-ninth month this month, another month of being together, and I am hoping for eternal, I know that we’re still young and we couldn’t tell that we are meant to be together for the rest of our lives, but I have faith, I know God has plans for us, and I know, I can feel that one of his plans is binding us together for infinity. Do I sound melodramatic? Or assuming?  :P well pardon me for it.

Right now, I am just so glad that our relationship is on the move, I can already feel the changes, we’re getting along so well, and we’re not having any more predicaments, no more rows so far. But I am not assuring for NO MORE, we’re just two normal people, and we make mistakes, just hoping that we’d overcome the dilemmas coming our way. I’m so glad to have this man, how many times have I said that, and how many times do I have to tell? (Probably a hundred times)  Because I am proud with this man, he’s intractable, and nervy at times, but that‘s normal, it’s his defense mechanism because he doesn’t want to be treated bad, he’s flexible at things, he’s tough-looking, but he is soft in the inside and loving, he is wise, and is very analytic, some of his classmates called him smart-aleck, and I was like what? And he felt bad about it, and I was in rage because they don’t know him, they know that this guy is very effervescent, and they think that he doesn’t know how to take things seriously, and they’re wrong, he’s really smart and they don’t see that, he even told me that during class discussion, and he recited out of the lesson, and his professor was impressed, his classmates can’t believe that he said something like that, and there’s one time, it was after their examination, and he got a high score, higher than who they thought were smart, and they can’t believe it. They disdain him, and I hate that they’re like that to him. However, why give an impression to those incredulous and futile people? So, I let it go, I believe in Earvin and I know that he has ways to prove those people wrong

I don’t care if he got flaws, it’s not all about the imperfections I’d find to him, because at the first place, I didn’t get into a relationship with him because he’s perfect, but because I accepted the real him, inside and out, whether he’s bald, and he got scars, I don’t care, as long as I love him nothing will change. Not a single bit.