She came like a hurricane, sweeping me off my feet.
Wearing that blue sundress, she light up and brought my heart to my mouth.
Her beauty is unspeakable, a word is not enough to describe her.
Her voice is a music my mind can’t get enough of, and how the dent of her cleft chin shows when she laughs or smiles. She’s Aphrodite in my world.
But there’s a Medusa in our life too, and all like others, there are predicaments.
She’s rich, I’m not.
Her mother is the Medusa that always gets in our way. That made our love to be in maelstrom.
And, I’m a skateboarder, she’s a . . . . . . . well, she’s a miracle.
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Clutching my skateboard in my left hand, I place it down and kick my foot to move forward, when I saw a girl in a sundress with a book in her hand. Her hair was flowing with the breeze, walking and letting her dress also flow with every movement she makes, and she set my heart with a thudding beat.
I kicked my board and rushed and halt in front of her, her eyes were wide open in astonishment, and was utterly astounded with what I did but I just smiled.
“New girl huh?!” I paused, she’s still flabbergasted and still the cat got her tongue, “Well, I’m. . . Uh . . . I’m Ram.” I continued and extended my hand for proper introduction. She burrowed her eyebrows and look down her feet, “Well, that was quite an introduction Mr., is that what you always do to meet new people?” She said nonchalantly, and looked at me with a raised eyebrow. I knew she wouldn’t be easy.
“Well, not with someone that doesn’t interest me.” I smiled, “Look, Ms., I won’t harm you alright? So where are you from?” Her face seemed to ease.
“So I’m interesting? Is that what you’re trying to say? Well, yes I am new here, moved here with my mom and my sister to get away from my father. So there, fascinating enough?” She said and tried to walk pass me and I followed.
“Your sister must be beautiful too, like you.” I said and she looked at me, looking all pleased and her cheeks flushed.
“I don’t know, people always say that she’s more beautiful than I am, and I could see that too. So I guess you’re wrong.” She smiled a bit sadly, showing the dent of her cleft chin. “You skate huh? You must be pretty good.” She added.
“I don’t know, maybe you could see it yourself.” I offered as we kept walking, going near to where our skate spot is, with all of my friends.
“You can come with me, at the spot, there are other skaters there I’m sure you’ll have fun.” Inside of me was wishing that she would come, I’d like to know her more, and be with her a little longer.
“Well, I’m not in a hurry, so I guess maybe I could.” And then she smiled and the beautiful dent on her chin appeared again, “I am Meadow by the way, Meadow Nicholson.” She extended her hand and I shook it “I am Ram, Ram Anderson Carter.” Her hand were soft and smooth that I couldn’t let go of it. And she smiled at me.
We walked a bit more and reached our skate spot, there were a lot of people, as always. And I saw that people are starting to look where I am, skaters stopping to stop and look at. . . .Meadow. I’ve expected that already, she’s remarkably beautiful and I knew everyone would notice her.
I introduced her to my friends, Zac, Allen, Alex, Nathan, Krista, and Amber. Like me, there are all skaters and they’re very good. And yes, these two girls I knew, Krista and Amber are amazing skateboarders. After introducing to my friends, Krista and Amber stare her down, I know these girls are so intimidating. But Meadow wasn’t intimidated, she grabbed my board instead and start to skate in front of us, she did a kick flip, tic-tac, and Ollie, I was amazed of course, it wasn’t obvious when I met her, that she got an inner skateboarder. My friends were surprised too especially when she sashayed with my board and performed an inward heel flip, hard flip, and laser flip. She killed it, even if she’s in her sundress, she nailed those tricks and made the people around us amazed. Krista and Amber went to her after putting up quite a show, I saw the people around us smiling at her, and she grinned to me as I shook my head in disbelief.
I took her home after, she live in a huge, beautiful white house in the Upper East Side, and she sure is rich. Just like what I thought when I first see her. We exchanged numbers so we could still talk, she loves to learn more about skateboarding. She learned to skate last two years when her brother was still them, and he thought her those tricks, but they’re mom forbade her, for it was an unlikely behavior for a fine woman like her. Her mom got a point actually, she’s beautiful and well-mannered, but she’s in the wrong century. Women can do anything they want, even skateboarding, just like Lauren Perkins, and not just host a tea party or attend a ball.
For three weeks, we both spend time skateboarding and teaching her other tricks with my friends made me so exultant. She’s already friends with Krista and Amber, and with the boys as well. But one afternoon, when we’re at the skate spot practicing the 50-50 Grind on the skateboard rail, a black lavish-looking Mercedes Benz came into halt in the entrance.
A woman in a crisp black suite and pencil-cut skirt came out and stood, looking at Meadow. She walk right at us and hold Meadow in her elbow and pull her without saying a word. I block their way to stop her from pulling Meadow, “Excuse me? And who do you think you are?” She asked coolly and stared me down. “My name is Ram, I’m a friend of Meadow and I think you shouldn’t be doing that to her.” She let go of Meadow’s elbow and faced me with a scary looking stare. I swear to God she’s scarier than Medusa. “I am Amanda Nicholson, and I’m her mother, and please stay away from my daughter, I don’t want her hanging around with some bunch of tacky skateboarders, who got no life.”
“MOM!! Do we look like Dalmatians to you?” Meadow asked, infuriated.
“What?! Why?!” Her mother asked even more peevish.
“Then why are you acting like Cruella De Vil?!” I sniggered and looked at Meadow whose eyes were like Cyclops, staring at her mom aggravated, she cut her mom like surgeon. I wanted to congratulate her for that.
“Look Meadow, I’m not here to fool around with you and your tacky acquaintances here. And I don’t know what language you’re talking about and I don’t care. Just. Get. In. The. Car!” Her mother is just so impossible to talk to, she’s right, her mother’s really different. That’s why she doesn’t like to be with her mom, but she won the case, and got a full custody of Meadow and her sister. And now they’re both here with their Devil-wearing-prada of a mother.
“Mom! Why are you being such a bitch?! I’m not fifteen or whatever age you could just drag down to wherever you want me to be! I’m nineteen, and I would do anything I want to, and I’m not going with you.” She bellowed, and people start to huddle around us.
“Oooo-kay! You know Meadow you can go on with your mom, it’s okay, go on before you get featured on TMZ. You can send me a message or anything, just go with her, and take a rest.” I said, for I don’t want this commotion to worsen, for Meadow’s sake.
Meadow looked at me, as if begging for me to rescue her. But I can’t, she’s still her mom, and I’m not her boyfriend. . . . Am I?
Meadow handed me my skateboard and walk towards their car reluctantly, she looked back still looking morose. I can’t watch her go, but I can’t let her stay either.
Three weeks passed and still she wasn’t able to get out of their house, her mother asked their security not to let her out, as well as their housekeepers. She can’t do anything.
“You know Ram, I can’t live like this, and she’s treating me like a child. She won’t let me go out, to the mall, café, everywhere, not without her assistant.” Her voice is still angry, and I know she still is, even if she’s on the other line.
“Well, what can you do about it? You came from a rich family, and it turned out that your mom is actually Cruella De Vil, or maleficent even, lucky you’re not locked up in a tower or whatever.” I teased, I just want to make her feel good even just for a bit. I can feel her smiling.
“Yeah, so funny Ram” She said sounding sarcastic, yet somehow appease. “I can’t live like this Ram. . . It’s killing me. . . It’s killing me that I’m not seeing you . . . killing me that you’re not with me.” I just can’t believe myself of what she just told me. Does she want me?
“I don’t know Ram, but I just can’t take it. . . . I feel like I’m asphyxiating . . . I love you Ram. . . And I can’t bear the feeling that I’m not with you.” She continued and sighed, sounding so sincere, I love her too, but we are in between the devil and the deep blue sea. “You know what Meadow, I love you too. And I’ve felt that the very first time we met. And I can’t bear that you’re far from me too.” There, I need to tell her, the chance is right now. I need to tell her what I’ve been trying to keep from her, that she’s brought light to my life.
“Meadow, I love you, and I’ll do anything to help you, I’ll do anything to have you with me.” I Heard her sniff as if sobbing on the other line.
“Why didn’t you tell me? Is that true?” She tried to compose herself from sobbing.
“Of course Meadow, why would I lie to you? I didn’t tell you that because I don’t want you to feel that I’m rushing, we have just met, and we barely know each other, that’s why, I don’t want to freak you out, just like what I did with my sudden introduction the first time I saw you.” I explained, it all takes time, that’s what I believed, and that’s what I did. I became patient and waited for the right time, besides, she’s not the kind of girl that you will just rush and grab towards you, because she’s a gentle one. My total opposite.
“Ram, you don’t know how much I like you for being like that, you’re assertive and blunt, you weren’t afraid to speak your mind. I admired you with all that, I don’t care what my mom said, that you’re some tacky-skateboarding guy, because for me you are not. You are more than that, and I love you.” Those were the most beautiful words I’ve ever heard in my entire life, Meadow is a miracle.
“I’d like to see you Meadow, I’m sick of not seeing you, and I’ve got to give you something.” I am feeling desperate now, I need to have her in my arms.
“Tomorrow night, we could sneak to the back gate, there’s no one guarding there but it’s locked, maybe you could climb the wall?” She snickered from giving me such idea.
“Of course I could, so tomorrow night then? Nine o’clock?”
“No, we won’t be home until ten, could you be here by ten-thirty? My mom will be in her room and she won’t go out by that time.”
“Okay, ten thirty. . . I love you Meadow.”
“I love you too Ram.” And then she hung up. My chest felt at ease, I finally said it and now that she know it, I can’t be any happier, knowing that she feels the same way as I am. But it won’t be easy.
I can’t stop thinking about her, I woke up the next morning feeling thrilled and ecstatic. That’s the first good morning I ever had in my life. She sent me a message that morning and sure she started and completed my day amazingly. I went to the spot first and skate a bit, Amber and Krista asked about Meadow, they said they missed her I do too. It was nice that my friends like her too.
I climbed up the fence of their house and let myself in, just like what she told me, I climbed up at the back and there’s no one there. I sat on the ground under the tree in their yard.
I’m here. –R
She didn’t reply so I waited. At first I thought that she hadn’t arrive with her mom, but when three or more hours passed I knew she wouldn’t be coming.
I sent her countless messages, I was worried and then I received an email from her.
With your sudden introduction totally blew me away, I love how you stopped me on that board your eyes that I know are good, they’re your mirror and I saw what it reflected. You. And now, I don’t want to break it to you this way. This sudden goodbye.
I was so surprised when I went downstairs, seeing suitcases in the foyer. I thought it was only going to be some dinner that my mom always want to do, but we’ll be going, in London. My mom didn’t want my dad to see us anymore, and that would be impossible if we’re there, my dad will always get us. And also, my mom forbade me from seeing you. She doesn’t want you, she doesn’t want us.
I tried to fight against her will, but she’s just too hard. Heartless. She dragged me to the car and then drove off. I’m now in a hotel in Los Angeles, we’re waiting for her boyfriend, for he will be living with us in London. Tomorrow is our flight and I’m guarded. I don’t know what to do, I am locked up, my phone’s taken away from me, and her assistant just lent me her laptop, because I pleaded.
She’s selfish as you could imagine.
Now I’m doing this because I want to tell you that I’m not going to forget you, ever. You changed my way of life even for quite some time, you brought sunshine in me than you could ever tell. And I love you in words that couldn’t explain. I love you Ram. And I don’t want you to forget that even if I’m on the other side of the world, my world is you. And you’ll be in my heart no matter what happened.
Distance won’t take hold of what I’m feeling for you.
I hope that you are not mad, I wanted to see you. But circumstances won’t let me. But I know that we belong in the same universe and it will lead us to the same path. I will wait Ram. You’re the first person who made me feel this way, and I’m sure you’ll also be the last.
I love you Ram, until next time.
I felt the walls crumbling down on me, crushing every part of me. I didn’t know that the person who brought me sunshine will also bring the biggest storm, maelstrom in my life.
I grabbed my skateboard and hasten downstairs, I know that tears will stream down and I don’t want that. No, not in my room because I know it won’t stop. I let the board roll on the road uncontrollably, I don’t really care where I’m going, wherever this will lead me. I don’t’ feel, hear anything, but my heart thudding and the cold wind gusting in my face, making me numb even more.
As I go even faster, like the board is going to fly out under me, I wasn’t sure where I was. I just heard a loud sound not too far from me, and followed by a loud crash. I didn’t know where y board went. I just felt my body lying flat on the cold ground, I saw the stars, and it reminded me of you. I closed my eyes, I felt that I was smiling, and heard the last sounds that I’ll ever hear. Screams, from a woman…….. And from my heart.
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I can’t help but blame myself for it. I lost everything I had in my life. I lost the two men of my life, first my father, and then you. Ram.
We arrived at the LAX the next morning, I can’t even more morose when I sent you that email. I know I couldn’t live away from you and my father who truly loves me. I sent him an email after I sent you one, and told that I’ll be coming home to him. It’s the biggest and farthest step I ever made in my entire life, and I know that I won’t regret that. I won’t be away with you.
We’re at the airport and my mom came to the desk to check us all in, I excused myself to the rest room. My mom didn’t hesitate because I left my bags, but I got my phone which I snuck from her bag, and a few dollars for me to get out of LA. My heart was pounding, I’ve never snuck before. My hands were clammy and my feet were shaking, I passed the restrooms and run until I got to the exit. As I reached the door, I felt the wind in my face, I felt freedom. I didn’t stop, I ran farther and farther until I caught my breath and stopped and hailed a taxi. My feet were wobbling when I perched myself in and locked the door, and then the driver asked where to, I told him to take me to your skate spot’s street. And I said to myself. To Ram.
It was already seven in the evening when I got to the spot, I saw Krista and Amber, but the boys weren’t there. Krista was playing with her skateboard facing down, and Amber was sitting. They both didn’t look okay.
“Oh my god! Meadow, you’re here.” Krista asked as I came near and Amber looked up with the same expression Krista gave me. Surprised and sad.
“Yes, I’m here. Where’s Ram?” I asked, and their face both froze, and looked at each other.
“Meadow, I don’t really know how we are going to tell this shitting news to you.” Krista spoke and looked again to Amber and me.
“Ram died from skating this morning, 3:15 AM.” She paused, as I sat down beside Amber, I can’t believe it my throat tighten, unable to speak.
“He got hit by a truck.” She said and looking down, I looked at Amber, staring at me, also sad from the news. My eyes felt hot as the tears welled up. I couldn’t bare it, my heart is so heavy to bare. Amber took my shoulder as I cry and let the hot tears roll down.
Ram, your funeral service was packed with people who loves you. I called my dad that night I came and fetch me immediately. And now he’s with me, staring at you, lifeless is still unbelievable, my eyes wept a lot of tears the next days, and right now I think it’s all drained, or maybe not. I asked your mother if I could have your skateboard which they retrieved from the hospital, the medics took your board in the ambulance the night you lost your life. I have it in my room, and I’ll keep it and take good care of it, as you take good care of me while you were teaching me. I could still feel your gentle hands when I feel the board in my hands.
It was so unfortunate, sudden things happened to us. Your introduction, my goodbye, your accident, and my sadness. I will keep what you have left me Ram, also I will never forget what you have taught and gave me, to fight for freedom and have the freedom. I will keep you in my heart. Forever. Hang on there, wherever you are, for our universe will lead us to each other again. I love you.